Five years ago this coming Easter Sunday, I recovered from what I believe to have been a case of clinical depression. This is the third post I wrote back then on a private blog about what was going on. For more details, see the first post in this series, and here's a link to the second post.
It's Sunday morning early, and I actually feel pretty good. I feel
pretty normal, as a matter of fact. Maybe it has something to do with
Yesterday morning I woke up feeling
NOT normal. I felt depressed. Then our fridge, the one that was in this
house when we moved in, tanked on us. It's been having death rattles for
a few days, but yesterday morning it defrosted our frozens and we knew
it was time to get it replaced. Problem was, we have very little cash on
hand... I have like $150 in the bank. Plus we've been having some
serious struggles keeping bills paid lately because of some
keeping-the-checkbook-current problems (this financial mess is a real
contributor to my moods lately) so I figured we wouldn't be able to get
credit to get one at a regular store like Sears or Lowe's or Home Depot
or whatever. Cathy checked around by phone for some used fridge places,
but came up dry, so after my son's soccer game we went to see what would
happen if we looked at the stores. On the way to Home Depot we
prayed... Cathy prayed. I told her either we were going to have to
resolve to take what we could get, or we were going to have to pray for
the Holy Spirit's help in finding what we want for a price we could
So we went to two Lowe's and one Home Depot,
then we went to a Maytag outlet store that we had passed on the way to
Home Depot. We didn't really see anything we were particularly stunned
with at the hardware stores, but at the Maytag store we found two
identical beautiful blemished-in-some-way-we-couldn't-even-find fridges
marked down from almost $900 before tax to just under $600 counting the
tax! The signs said financing 90 days same as cash; we figured we could
tighten our belts somehow and come up with the $200 each month. But when
the salesman ran our credit, not only did they give us a credit line
that would have bought any fridge in the store if we had wanted, they
gave us twelve months same as cash! I'm pretty positive I can come up with fifty
bucks a month (to avoid the 22% interest if we go over teh 12 months
WHEW!). We would have had to wait several days for them to deliver it,
so we borrowed my father-in-law's truck and brought it home ourselves.
My dad helped me unload and get it into the house.
maybe the reason I feel good this morning is the physical exertion
yesterday, in which case I really need to start getting my butt back to
the gym. I'm going to try doing cardio every day next week and see what
happens (I'll go easy on myself to start... every day but a light
workout). Maybe it's partly because God clearly answered our prayer with
the fridge, which is even bigger and nicer than the old one. Maybe it's
because it's Sunday and time for singing! Maybe I've blown a few days'
bad moods out of proportion... I hope that's the case but I think maybe
it's not. All I can do is wait and see!
Start with the first post in this series here, or continue with the next post here.